My parents took my turtles and release them into the pond yesterday early morning, while we were all still sleeping *sob sob* I had them for around 4 years or maybe 5 years already. Remember the time I always put them out there for a sun bath and feed them with papaya (it is their favourite fruit!). But it is right to release them back into the nature again. They shouldn’t be kept into the aquarium for a life time. It is just that …. sad … I’ll miss you all babes! You guys been so sweet and tender. Much love xoxoxoxoxo!!!

Other matters:

1. I’m going to have my own car soon hehehe. Well, it is a second hand car from me mum, but better than none aye I am not sure if I would drive a lot since the price of the petrol is going up like crazy! Man, how are we all gonna survive with that? It is going to increase some more from what I’ve heard… sad …
2. Got a new sun glasses from A-Look yesterday, for free! Well, not a bad one.
3. Been doing the packing lately, off to NZ again! Only this time is winter. I haven’t been to a place that’s real cold before but I know I’m gonna hate the cold. Give muah back da summer!!
4. Had nightmare, kinda like the whole town here was haunted. And I almost lost my precious Bebe and sister. Thanks god it was just a dream.
5. My dad still doesn’t want to talk to me much. But it is alright. I’ll prove that I can do well for my life and all that.
6. Some nuts came and cut all the trees down on the empty lot behind my house. No more trees and bushes that keep the hot outta my room.

Happy family is very impottant for the growth of the children., especially those little children.

I was shocked to see my lil’ sister gone crazy last night. I’m so so worried that she will grow up to be some sort of … you know, maniac lol Right, not supposed to say my sister like that. Well, at least I hope she could grow up happily and will not experience any shitty things like I did. Yes, nothing in the world is more important than my dear dear sisters.

Was last night a full-moon night? It seems to me that people always not really happy in full-moon night. After arguing with my boyfriend, I got really upset. It reminds me of what happened for the past few years. I’m scared, I don’t want to go back to the old path. I want to be in love to be loved.

Staying in a harsh condition family is hard, having hopes is even harder. As the eldest daughter in the house, i must have to take care of my sisters. We look after each other. Because I realise, no matter how close you were with anyone, they will just helped on physical things, they never helped or want to help in the mental things. Maybe because of it, I get kinda hard to believe in anyone easily.  People always take advantages of me, I helped as much as I could, cause I though it could change their minds and be nicer to me. Funny to say that, everytime tried, everytime failed.

Oh well, now I just want to be with my sisters and my pets. They always be with me whenever I need them. But Bebe always barks and Bun always jumps around lol. I want to live better than anyone else I know. Study hard and earn a lot of money then take my sisters get the hell outta here.

Now I know the right way to lose my body weight, I will try hard to do so. Next thing hmm, I kinda like the new fregrance from Banana Republic. And me and my sisters want a camera. Yup, next target, fregrance and camera. Then a laptop for my sisters and I. This Saturday is giong to my sister’s school to take the report card for her. Still thinking if I should go to kareoke wtih my suster and her friends. Maybe can get to know more friends. I hope the war can stop soon. I really don’t want anymore worse thing happen. I pray to God.

Amen.

The Campaign:

Ok, so nobody came. We had to go and look for the friends and friends’ friends to come and join the talk. The companies that came for giving the talk was pretty mad as they were waiting for 30 minutes ++ and still no one came. Our lecturer mad at us as there were no one came and so ashamed for the companies.

The XX Gym Center didn’t show up on our booth. They went to the other group instead. Well, great, we had learn a lesson.

Those people from The Art of Living are just so damn nice. They prepared the food and everything with the greatest ingredients. They sold those food without having the intension to earn anything back. All the money were donated to the China Earthquake victims. Besides, we really want to thank to all those kind people who donated the money. We had been collected around 370RM for 2 days just to sell and got donation from the people who passed by. Thanks.

As for myself, I had learn some useful breathing techniques + yoga from The Art of Living which helped me to relax and release stress. They weren’t really happy as not many people came for the activities. But oh well. Still have to thank them for being so kind.

It was somewhat a mess when we were working on the report for the campaign. Some of the people just not sure what’s their work and all that. At the end, me and another girl had to be mean to force everyone to finish their parts before the due date. I took about 3 hours ++ just to correct the grammars for the report … before the due time … on the due date … lol ….

The exam:

First paper was Distribution & Logistics Management. It was alright. Didn’t have time to study all of the powerpoints so I just studied for only the essay part. Well, I had finished 6 questions as it required but not really confident in multiple-choice.

Second paper was Consumer Behaviour. It was a nightmare. Though lecturer already gave a hint that one of the 2 case study would come out for the exam. However, a lot of people aimed at the Rabbit Meat case study. Some of my course mates also kept telling me that case study was gonna come out for the exam. But thanks God, I didn’t listen to them. I focused more on the Treviparks case study, which was the one came out for the exam. I could hear some of them sighing loud in the exam.

So the final exam time is 3 hours. I spent around 1 hours 30 minutes to finish answering the case study, under the condition that I had prepared the exactly same case study before the exam. It was not because the case study was too long or complicated, it was the answers that we had to give. OMG, I used 2 booklets for just only the 2 questions in the case study. We had to answer the 6 steps of consumer decision making process and the marketing mix (4 Ps), each part had to write around 1/3 page or half a page. Man, total up 10 parts, can you imagine how fast we all had to write? After that, there were still 3 “short” essay questions. Oh boy, they are not short at all … lol. I managed to finish all of them: the case study and the 3 essay questions. However, I ain’t really sure if I had got the answers correct. The lecturer is very strict on the answers we gave. If you answer the questions without linking it to any consumer behaviours concepts, then you fail, even though you may write 3 booklets. So, I was kinda worried about it. I do not want to fail, in fact, I can’t fail any of them cause I am under government loan. But then, I have confidence in self that I will at least get a credit, pass or something Yup!

Me:

I didn’t put on contact lenses much lately because I always went to bed late and woke up early in the morning. Not good to put on. Besides, I think the solutions for my lens are too strong. It always makes me eyes sore a bit. The lady in the glasses store asked me to change to another brand, which I do not have much time to go on the shops to buy for it now. It was such a waste though. I only used it a few times in last month. Might consider to buy the one-day-use later on. Oh, I have got new glasses lol. Finally!! My friends said that I look better in this one, well of course lol, the one I used to have was very old already.

Oh yea, I had a BMI test on the campaign day. The results showed that my body did not contain too much fats but I’m way too heavy for an asian girl. So, they said that it maybe my bones are too heavy, circulation of body fluid in the body is slow, or hormone unbalance. I think it is because of the circulation and hormone. As I had a body checked before, and that’s what my doctor told me. So, now I that I know I don’t have much fats in me, that’s mean I can eat a lot of KFC!! Hehehehe. Oh, by the way, KFC in Malaysia is way better than in New Zealand

I, myself not very happy these few days. I know very well what a life I want and what I want to look for in love, family, life and so on. But life is always very cruel. Either you get one and lost another or you don’t get any of what you deserve to have. Lookin’ in the mirror and still look fat and ugly. Sigh. But, anyway, I’m glad I was busy to keep these things off my mind. I wish I could be busy sometimes, in fact, always busy, so I could live happier and only have to complain about Oh-I-am-very-very-busy-lately *thumbs up* I want to be alone, a loner and only want Bebe with me.

*snap snap* Well back to reality, still have one more exam next Friday. After that might want to go to have shabu-shabu with Giang and friends, or just my sisters. Oh um, Bun keeps going into my room and jumps on my bed lately.

After that, I need to do some shopping before heading to NZ, maybe.. or hang out with my old friends, my sisters, or my sister’s friends. Don’t know, I hope I have more time to spend for myself in the holiday. I want to watch a lot a lot a lot a lot a lot of movies and buy a camera again and take a lot a lot a lot a lot of pictures when I go everywhere. I want to learn how to swim and go to Lang Tengah Island, Redang Island or any islands to do snorkeling again. I want to go bowling. I want to lay on the grass and cry out loud for the shitty things in my life. I want to blah blah blah *snap* Ok, I am going to have a shower.

Adios amigo.