Officially an independant child

Well, that’s it. They did it yesterday. I don’t know why she was so firm and wanted to sign on that bloody paper but I guess maybe it is what’s best for them so far. Can I say we could be like just before? I’m not sure to be honest. We still went out to have dinner, as a whole, just like before. Happier than what happened for the past few months but there’s still something that makes me chill. No matter what happened, it was for sure. Now, I am officially an independant child who can choose not to stay with anyone, leave here and become an irresponsible sister. Who knows what am I going to be?

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Muzzle for the poor dogs

Dad and cold-blooded sisters agreed to get muzzle for Bebe and Bun because Bebe bite them. Well, I can justify good reasons why he “attacked” them.

1. Bebe wanted to protect me
2. Sisters made Bebe angry by doing something he doesn’t like how other people treated him
3. Bebe always tends to get a bit nervous and wants to tell everyone when he heard someone         is home.
4. Bun bites everything in the house, from A to Z.
5. Both of them bark loud sometimes when some strangers around/ when my dad is around             (Bebe).

So yea, they got it. But only a few sizes left. We chose the smallest size that available in the pet shop. It is a still a bit big for Bebe and Bun. So sad to see Bebe having it on. I took it off for him several times. Couldn’t help, he looked very very very depress while he had it on

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Mysterious weight

Let me check how much I weight now…

Oh! I’ve lost 2 kg!! Yay!!

Oh wait, no. I just temporarily lost 2 kg at the moment.

Yea, well as BMI tested, my body fluid circulation is not very good. So sometimes I tend to gain more weight though I didn’t eat at all for a whole day but just drank isotonic drinks or just water. I think it is getting worse. My legs tend to get a little bit swollen up if I sit uncomfortably for a while. It is very irritating. Hope that I can get to fix it soon!

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Moving out

My dad ended his partnership with uncle and got a job in another uncle’s factory. Well, it is better for him. No more working on Saturday and Sunday and some public holidays. No more saying not enough money and therefore didn’t get any salary or bonus for the months and years. No more saying still owing whichever companies for thousand and thousand of money. No more cheating and stealing my dad’s money from his bank for them! Hurray! I think my dad made a wise choice. It is time for them to take whatever they did before and my dad is supposed to get whatever he deserves for all the hard works through all those years. In your face, smelly-money-stealer! (haha not creative at the moment to give them a better name, though I do have a better name for them, due to ethics issue, I will not say it).

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Friends and Family

Actually, as I know, I got disappointed enough from people. However, I am glad that I know who are my best friends when I was in deep shit. Thanks for helping me when I needed you guys!!

Oh, and of course, thanks to my boyfriend who eventually evolves to a warm-hearted creature He was there when I needed him. Well, not all the time but it is improving. Love you ~~

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Continue…

I talked to Corena and I told her that I was strong and I will hang in there, least I can do. I am glad I mean it while I said it. I’m also glad that I had a talk with my auntie. She is the nicest auntie in the world. Thanks for everything. I will be tough and strong. I believe it helps me to become a better person.

Love yo’ll!

Thank you God.

May the force always be with you.

Happy Halloween! Well, I know it is a bit early to say that, hmm well 3 days early but I “celebrated” it yesterday *shrugs*

We hadn’t gone out all together for a long time. So yup, we went to 1u yesterday, had shabu-shabu and I bought a pair of new shoes (I really am short of shoes ok). Before we left, we saw a Halloween festival thingie where they sold a lot of Halloween stuff.

I was enjoying walking around with my high-heel shoes, they are pretty cool. Took some pictures too.

Oh, and happy Deepavali

New subject

Well finally, I took Moral Studies this short semester. At first I though I was gonna be alone luckily one of my friends is taking that subject too so I can relax a bit now. Not that I can’t survive in a new class without knowing anyone, it is just that it may be a bit hard to join a group or get any members for the group assignments. This semester, we have 1 individual assignment, 1 group project (visiting special home), and 1 group presentation. Of course, these assessments can be done by individual from what the lecturer said. But wouldn’t it be easier if there are more people doing it? This subject is not going to help me to gain anything for my certificate actually. Anyhow, still need to try my best.

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Current subjects

Alright, almost final exam. I still feel like it was just only started a new semester for certain subjects. Yes, I gained a bit of knowledge by going to these classes, but… sigh. Never mind. I was supposed to start my assignment last week after I interviewed. But having too many problems in the house, I have been demotivated. I’ve been telling myself that I need to start doing it, at least from today. Due date is next Friday. Gam ba teh, Li Lin!

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Family

Realize that being a mom is not easy. Just taking care around the house everyday, routinely, already killing half of me. Not that I’m weak, I kept telling myself to be tough and responsible, I know I can gain heaps from it, but somehow deep down inside, I am so tired. Tired of taking care around the house, sisters, and even my parents. I tried to stay positive, but I am so worried I will just fall apart again. Wasn’t easy to walk out and step up again from depression, worried will go back to how it was.

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Car

Oh well, my lousy car broke down yesterday because the oil burnt out, ha! Luckily, parents were around that area and came to save us. Was thinking to drive to uni today for the 3 hours lecture. Anyway, it was late, I had to take taxi to uni. The taxi driver was ok, speak well english. They were pretty mad at the other taxi drivers who rip off from all the people. So do I.

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Me

As usual, nothing special. Saw some other people have fun in the party, doing their hobbies, going out, a whole family having dinner happily together. It actually makes me feel sad deep down inside. Because of my parents, I lost my life as a happy student. Yes, I dare to blame it on them, they have to take part of the responsibility. I have to cut all my social life and my own time at the moment and I don’t know how long it gonna be like that. Yes, as the eldest in the house, yes I have to take care of everyone, but not my parents as well. Ok, maybe I should, for a little while, while they are not in a good mood, but not the rest of my life, right? I’m not saying that I don’t want to take care of them when they are old, but when they are having conflicts. Emotional torture I can tell. Everyone seems to be very childish when they are in arguments. So, yes, as a daughter, as the eldest, I have to consider not to hurt everyone, and take good care of them, but who on earth is going to take care of me, well at least my emotional? It’s too hard, too hard.

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Today

Another day. Good bad bad good. Don’t know when it is gonna end. If they don’t end this matter soon, I will end myself later.

I need some time to think about the relationship.

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My puppies

Bebe doesn’t want to go downstairs with me anymore in the morning because he knows I am gonna scold him for peeing everywhere around the house. He just doesn’t like to pee in the toilet…

He was waiting for me yesterday when I was in the uni. Was so happy to see me home I’m glad at least someone cares about my existent.

As the title stated, yes I interviewed important people for my first time. It was quite fun actually for going around and see the people.

Due to some reasons, my sister couldn’t accompany me to the company yesterday. So, I asked HiJin to go with me. I really really really appreciate her for accompanying me for a whole half day while she supposed to be in her bed sleeping until 10

I drove to the company around Damansara Heights there. I was a little bit nervous because I never drove there by myself before. And finally, we found the company.

Well, it was pretty funny. The lady who came out to see us saying that Mr. Z that I’m going to interview was not around blah blah blah while I told him I already made an appointment with him. Later on, Mr. Z had to call on my cellphone to ask where was I and lol he was in the office. I was pretty sure the lady could have seen him in the office because it was a glass wall! Anyway, I didn’t blame her. It was her job to protect the boss though. Mr. Z is a very very very very nice man I was blessed. Everything went very well. He agreed to take pictures with me and even sent us down to the building. Haha I was so clumsy and I dropped my cover there. He called me and asked me to pick it up. Again, I was blessed

Though the interview was shorter than I expected but I didn’t blame on anyone because I didn’t prepare well. Somehow, I gained my experience and I know what to do next time I also very appreciate Mr. Z’s helps. I will try my best to work for the best for this assignment.